Sunday, February 14, 2010
虎年到了~~！！ 祝大家在这新的一年心想事成，事事如意。新年快乐~~~！！今年的农历大年初一刚好也是西洋的情人节（二月十四日），也祝天下所有的情侣情人节快乐~~
前几天又发牢骚了，我很烦吧，哈哈。。我也觉得，定力不够，所以才会这样。。。真没用！！！
我知道这几天都是梦境来的，因为他不可能会回来 （不否认我是很希望他回来）。。梦会醒来的， 我知道。。我因该会在痛一次吧。。会吗？。。。那天我又消失你们就知道了
至于我那位朋友TM，我之后有回电邮给他。。。因为他一个人在国外，相信有来至于自己同乡的慰问，是一种欣慰吧。。。他好像回国了，如果没记错是在上个礼拜四回来的。。。希望他的过年过得不错。。。有点刻意不想传简讯给他。。。没为什么，就不想吧。。
我想我是个怪人。。想的事好像都和别人不同，在烦的事都是自找的，所受的伤也是自找的，真的是个神经大条加反应迟屯的怪人。。。
前几天又发牢骚了，我很烦吧，哈哈。。我也觉得，定力不够，所以才会这样。。。真没用！！！
我知道这几天都是梦境来的，因为他不可能会回来 （不否认我是很希望他回来）。。梦会醒来的， 我知道。。我因该会在痛一次吧。。会吗？。。。那天我又消失你们就知道了
至于我那位朋友TM，我之后有回电邮给他。。。因为他一个人在国外，相信有来至于自己同乡的慰问，是一种欣慰吧。。。他好像回国了，如果没记错是在上个礼拜四回来的。。。希望他的过年过得不错。。。有点刻意不想传简讯给他。。。没为什么，就不想吧。。
我想我是个怪人。。想的事好像都和别人不同，在烦的事都是自找的，所受的伤也是自找的，真的是个神经大条加反应迟屯的怪人。。。
i know that i have loved you ... at 3:06 AM
fate crumbled all around 0 identities
fate crumbled all around 0 identities
Monday, February 08, 2010
Finally mon is over...glad that it ended quite well...i hope i did miss out those details which i don't wish to know and also i did not get to know what is going after that...because i make myself MIA a short while and also got a ride from my friend... really thanks God for helping me with that...even though i do curious how it goes after we leave for the car... but guess it is fated i need not to know what is the ending like...then i should not pursue on it...and thing should go back to normal as of now already
Listening to the song now by Angela Zhang...don't really like her song in the past but now start to like the songs...brings me back memories...somehow or rather really spell out my feeling too...i know i am starting again but i am not dwelling on it...i am learning to let go and guess i do pick up how to.. at least now i don't feel the pain that sharp...like my buddy said, as time goes the pain will be gone...indeed it is but slowly kind of bit too slow ...can expedite abit???
Got an email from my friend i always called him TM, he is now in Australia going through his orientation there...don't deny he is really indeed a Mr Nice Guy but i feel bad for what i have done in the past...somehow or rather i did indirectly make use of him to try to forget him...it is unfair to him i know and which is why now i feel so bad about it...really bad haiz...i don't wish to give him false hope...i don't mind to be just friends...but does he thinks that too?... I don't know ....should i reply his email? He told me he miss Singapore...how should i reply him?...hmmm really stuck in the dilemma now...how and what should i do now?
Really wish Doraemon is my friend now...allow me to go to the future see what i should do to prevent anyone from getting hurts...it is painful i know because i been through it...think i should go and sleep...see if i could get any idea or not...
Listening to the song now by Angela Zhang...don't really like her song in the past but now start to like the songs...brings me back memories...somehow or rather really spell out my feeling too...i know i am starting again but i am not dwelling on it...i am learning to let go and guess i do pick up how to.. at least now i don't feel the pain that sharp...like my buddy said, as time goes the pain will be gone...indeed it is but slowly kind of bit too slow ...can expedite abit???
Got an email from my friend i always called him TM, he is now in Australia going through his orientation there...don't deny he is really indeed a Mr Nice Guy but i feel bad for what i have done in the past...somehow or rather i did indirectly make use of him to try to forget him...it is unfair to him i know and which is why now i feel so bad about it...really bad haiz...i don't wish to give him false hope...i don't mind to be just friends...but does he thinks that too?... I don't know ....should i reply his email? He told me he miss Singapore...how should i reply him?...hmmm really stuck in the dilemma now...how and what should i do now?
Really wish Doraemon is my friend now...allow me to go to the future see what i should do to prevent anyone from getting hurts...it is painful i know because i been through it...think i should go and sleep...see if i could get any idea or not...
i know that i have loved you ... at 11:51 PM
fate crumbled all around 0 identities
fate crumbled all around 0 identities
Sunday, February 07, 2010
been a long while since my last post. not much of changes to me except change to a new job. left my project base post, that is really an experience for me. how am i doing hmm 'busy' is the word i can use to describe for me now. i know for those out there will think that is the usual me and YES THIS IS ME WHEN COME TO WORK. frankly i don't know what i have been busying but just got things popping in. Also lots for me to pick up, in terms of new industry, job scope, new 'system', environment, working with people from all over the world and culture for my new company.
busy seems to be my best friend now. everyday i will end my day not knowing why things can pile up so fast. ever since i started this new post, i really really rarely meet up with my friends. mainly is because timing and location issue. but i get to meet up with someone which i least expected to. well guess is just co-incidence that he could make it for the last 2 times. anyway really want to say 'thank you; for his time, it has give me 2 weeks of relaxing times at least i feel more happy and not so stress up. but will not bother him so much i know he is very busy, got someone and so many stuff to handle. maybe he find it hard to reject me because i am such a nuisance hahaha
lately did something silly, just like what i wrote in my last post. really silly or rather stupid of me. think i am testing how strong my heart is. bracing myself to this coming monday. i hope i can be myself and everything goes normal. i should have draft the list myself instead of getting my friend to help. is a very big mistake to get other people to arrange stuff on behalf when the date is set by me. this is gonna be my last initiatives and i will not suggest anymore. i don't think my heart can take any more blow.
anyway i am shifting my blog soon, working on the new template. this is going to be in all chinese and will not only have posting on me. i will put in my own short stories write up there. looking forward to post it up. i will post here again to announce the new link once i roll out. as for this blog, hmm i will keep it but probably will now publish it anymore. i got to move on and really move. looking back all these post now it does affect me to move on. but i will delete whatever i wrote here, as all these are my lesson, my life journey lesson. i hope one day i look back here, i feel normal. when will this day be, i don't know.
busy seems to be my best friend now. everyday i will end my day not knowing why things can pile up so fast. ever since i started this new post, i really really rarely meet up with my friends. mainly is because timing and location issue. but i get to meet up with someone which i least expected to. well guess is just co-incidence that he could make it for the last 2 times. anyway really want to say 'thank you; for his time, it has give me 2 weeks of relaxing times at least i feel more happy and not so stress up. but will not bother him so much i know he is very busy, got someone and so many stuff to handle. maybe he find it hard to reject me because i am such a nuisance hahaha
lately did something silly, just like what i wrote in my last post. really silly or rather stupid of me. think i am testing how strong my heart is. bracing myself to this coming monday. i hope i can be myself and everything goes normal. i should have draft the list myself instead of getting my friend to help. is a very big mistake to get other people to arrange stuff on behalf when the date is set by me. this is gonna be my last initiatives and i will not suggest anymore. i don't think my heart can take any more blow.
anyway i am shifting my blog soon, working on the new template. this is going to be in all chinese and will not only have posting on me. i will put in my own short stories write up there. looking forward to post it up. i will post here again to announce the new link once i roll out. as for this blog, hmm i will keep it but probably will now publish it anymore. i got to move on and really move. looking back all these post now it does affect me to move on. but i will delete whatever i wrote here, as all these are my lesson, my life journey lesson. i hope one day i look back here, i feel normal. when will this day be, i don't know.
i know that i have loved you ... at 1:16 AM
fate crumbled all around 0 identities
fate crumbled all around 0 identities