Wednesday, April 29, 2009
Coming to the end of April alrdy....another month has gone...this month passes quite fast...as usual the busy schedule i have plus company audit...lots of verification and answering going on...oh also plus farewell and birthday lunches/dinners going on....
A couple of my colleagues have tendered....feel sad as these people are those who can work with and understand the process....now that they have gone...guess i will have hell lots of problem with the new person who is going to take over...haiz (~.~||)...also at the same time i feel happy for them...because they have found the direction and moving towards it...Congrats!! (^.^) ...Maybe because i look forwards for changes and to leave the company that way i happy for them more than sad...haha..how i hope i can also leave soon ...real soon...
Many changes in my company lately...too much and too fast that it gives a big uncertainty to me...i don't know where i will be after the changes take place...i don't know after the changes take place will i be able to perform...i don't know with changes kick in does that mean i'm no longer needed there....many question marks float out above my head now....
Beside these question mark that bothers me...there's another push factor that urge me to leave the company....that's the environment and the people there...like in the past i been complaining....the company has grown so fast and so many changes taken place has make the environment more and more uncomfortable....people changed and new people new working style...
It may appear that i can't adapt the new changes the company has....I will said Yes and No....Yes as it is due to the new faces and new working style that turning me off from the work....No as i find that changes that don't need me to work against my princple i'm fine...but the changes now has somehow pushes me to work against my principle...I don't feel comfortable...It has come to a point that almost every discussion or question asked will end up debating and arguing ...haiz this just making me feel tired....
This mth also alot of April babies....have a big hole in my pocket alrdy....pressie plus lunches and dinners....it soooo expensive man....my April mth has packed with full of work debating, birthday and farewell celebration plus my tennis session....it has been so packed that it helps to exhaust all my energy....good as it stop me from having those nonsense thinking and worries
I've been good girl since my last blog on the 6th....i managed to let things down abit....because i'm able to talk abt them abit when ppl happen to ask...though i still don't feel so good.....
Today received a call from him...I'm shocked and kind of nervous while talking to him...talking half-way through he paused awhile and delibrately cover the speaker of the phone but still i heard her voice...seems like she was late to meet him...i supposed she know he's talking to me...and i don't know for me overheard the conversaton they had does it mean anything or nothing....am i thinking too much again...i don't know...just find it very funnie whenever i thought i have done very well to let things down...some how something will happen and trigger my emotion again....so tired...i'm sure for ppl who read my blog find me a loser....a big loser...keep saying let go but have not done it....keep saying not to mention but yet still mention...loser rite...i know ...i am...anyway his birthday round the corner...still i will wish him a happy birthday and may his wishes come true....
A couple of my colleagues have tendered....feel sad as these people are those who can work with and understand the process....now that they have gone...guess i will have hell lots of problem with the new person who is going to take over...haiz (~.~||)...also at the same time i feel happy for them...because they have found the direction and moving towards it...Congrats!! (^.^) ...Maybe because i look forwards for changes and to leave the company that way i happy for them more than sad...haha..how i hope i can also leave soon ...real soon...
Many changes in my company lately...too much and too fast that it gives a big uncertainty to me...i don't know where i will be after the changes take place...i don't know after the changes take place will i be able to perform...i don't know with changes kick in does that mean i'm no longer needed there....many question marks float out above my head now....
Beside these question mark that bothers me...there's another push factor that urge me to leave the company....that's the environment and the people there...like in the past i been complaining....the company has grown so fast and so many changes taken place has make the environment more and more uncomfortable....people changed and new people new working style...
It may appear that i can't adapt the new changes the company has....I will said Yes and No....Yes as it is due to the new faces and new working style that turning me off from the work....No as i find that changes that don't need me to work against my princple i'm fine...but the changes now has somehow pushes me to work against my principle...I don't feel comfortable...It has come to a point that almost every discussion or question asked will end up debating and arguing ...haiz this just making me feel tired....
This mth also alot of April babies....have a big hole in my pocket alrdy....pressie plus lunches and dinners....it soooo expensive man....my April mth has packed with full of work debating, birthday and farewell celebration plus my tennis session....it has been so packed that it helps to exhaust all my energy....good as it stop me from having those nonsense thinking and worries
I've been good girl since my last blog on the 6th....i managed to let things down abit....because i'm able to talk abt them abit when ppl happen to ask...though i still don't feel so good.....
Today received a call from him...I'm shocked and kind of nervous while talking to him...talking half-way through he paused awhile and delibrately cover the speaker of the phone but still i heard her voice...seems like she was late to meet him...i supposed she know he's talking to me...and i don't know for me overheard the conversaton they had does it mean anything or nothing....am i thinking too much again...i don't know...just find it very funnie whenever i thought i have done very well to let things down...some how something will happen and trigger my emotion again....so tired...i'm sure for ppl who read my blog find me a loser....a big loser...keep saying let go but have not done it....keep saying not to mention but yet still mention...loser rite...i know ...i am...anyway his birthday round the corner...still i will wish him a happy birthday and may his wishes come true....
i know that i have loved you ... at 11:31 PM
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Monday, April 06, 2009
又过一个月了。。。好快啊。。。2009年已过完3个月了。。。这3个月大家过得如何？？。。。希望大家都过得开心吧。。。这几天的天气都好奇怪。。。有时早上大热天到了下午又下起豪雨。。。不然就是连续几天都没下雨。。。热到不行。。。
除了有奇怪的天气。。。这一个多月来我也很忙。。。公司换了新东家，所以有好多人事方面和报道形式都有一些更改。。。不知道为什么更改的报道形式不知何时变成了我的部门该负者从新整理。。。其实要帮忙时可以，只是其中有一位经理很惹人厌又很自大。。。很难沟通。。。真的觉得这公司越来越不团结。。。。大家只顾自己。。。好自私。。。（~。~）
也因为忙着帮别的部门善后，搞得我自己分内的事都无法完成。。。忙得团团转。。。有好处也有坏处。。。坏处是我无法完成我分内的事和浪费时间帮不被令情的部门做事还让自己火气越发越大，搞得身心疲惫。。。好处则是让我忙得没时间想东想西的。。。心情平复许多。。。
去年在台湾买了一本小说 《等一个人咖啡》 作者九把刀。。。挺有趣又好读的。。。里头也让我学会一些事情。。。里头写了一点是，每一人的爱情就像是一道题目。。。每一个题目的答案不管多复杂，都只有一个答案。。。只是寻找答案的过程有的很简单，有的很复杂。。。
我题目可能出得有点复杂吧，好象还找不到解答的方法样子。。。本以为找到了。。。可是他好像不是我的答案。。。虽然感觉上好像是，而我的心里也很希望他是我的答案。。。可是终究他还不能解开我的题目。。。我想我得再等等看谁能解开我的题目。。。哈哈
反而他找了他的答案。。。因该很吻合吧。。。因该是对的答案了吧。。。不知道也不想知道了。。。让我的心情继续这样的平静，我会舒服多一些。。。。
除了有奇怪的天气。。。这一个多月来我也很忙。。。公司换了新东家，所以有好多人事方面和报道形式都有一些更改。。。不知道为什么更改的报道形式不知何时变成了我的部门该负者从新整理。。。其实要帮忙时可以，只是其中有一位经理很惹人厌又很自大。。。很难沟通。。。真的觉得这公司越来越不团结。。。。大家只顾自己。。。好自私。。。（~。~）
也因为忙着帮别的部门善后，搞得我自己分内的事都无法完成。。。忙得团团转。。。有好处也有坏处。。。坏处是我无法完成我分内的事和浪费时间帮不被令情的部门做事还让自己火气越发越大，搞得身心疲惫。。。好处则是让我忙得没时间想东想西的。。。心情平复许多。。。
去年在台湾买了一本小说 《等一个人咖啡》 作者九把刀。。。挺有趣又好读的。。。里头也让我学会一些事情。。。里头写了一点是，每一人的爱情就像是一道题目。。。每一个题目的答案不管多复杂，都只有一个答案。。。只是寻找答案的过程有的很简单，有的很复杂。。。
我题目可能出得有点复杂吧，好象还找不到解答的方法样子。。。本以为找到了。。。可是他好像不是我的答案。。。虽然感觉上好像是，而我的心里也很希望他是我的答案。。。可是终究他还不能解开我的题目。。。我想我得再等等看谁能解开我的题目。。。哈哈
反而他找了他的答案。。。因该很吻合吧。。。因该是对的答案了吧。。。不知道也不想知道了。。。让我的心情继续这样的平静，我会舒服多一些。。。。
i know that i have loved you ... at 11:38 PM
fate crumbled all around 0 identities
fate crumbled all around 0 identities