Monday, March 02, 2009
Hi all, it's been sometimes i post blog le....it's a dead blog for the past few weeks, nearly 2 months...not that i got nothing to post...yes i do have...my usual work frustration, my post-CNY feeling, my little getaway over the valentine week, my poor health condition and etc etc....didn't get to write it up here as many times when i wanted to post it i have many other thoughts...
In my last post, i promised to myself not to bother about them and don't mention it anymore....I know i break my promised....but reason being coz I've "killed" my heart and i decided to "bury" it now
Went for the gathering together and his the other half was there too....a little much earlier than i expected...coz i tot maybe i will get to know in late April or May...is actually just a normal catch up with one another...but not sure why there's a couple of moments that the whole atmosphere is very awkward...not sure if is i'm too sensitive but i can sense that all of us feel it...end up split into groups doing different talking different topics....
In fact i rejected the invitation earlier as i just recovered from my food poisoning last week...I should have stand firm and don't go but then again it is good too...I can really let go le...
When all of us about to leave...maybe i'm just too used to having him accompany me back home like last time...i forgotten that he need to send her off...3 of us actually stuck in the middle of the road looking @ each other...I'm glad that one of friend call me in time to get me out of the situation...thank u so much...
At that point i know everything is over...he will not accompany me back home like last time...he will not send me anymore msg like last time to ensure i'm alright...he will not chat with me like last time over anythings any matters except for some help maybe he will look for me...It's feel like a knife cut through my heart and now is dead...really dead
Like one of friend said i can't give my blessing to u as my heart has not totally let go off everything...my blessing won't be a good one to u...though my heart now is dead but i still don't think i can give u any blessing...i need some times to get over it first...definitely the day when i get over everything i will give my blessing and wishing u the best...
for now, i won't and i can't
Though is gonna be painful...i will hold on to it...i know i can do it and i have to do it...just let me be more busy and occupied i guess i will feel much more better...sometimes i really wish i'm less sensitive and don't be so alert...this will lessen my pain as i won't get to know things that i don't want to know...I really hope, pls
Thanks for stepping in my life and leaving me with memories of happiness, sadness and unforgettable moments. All these really let me grow up and change...I will keep these memories...
In my last post, i promised to myself not to bother about them and don't mention it anymore....I know i break my promised....but reason being coz I've "killed" my heart and i decided to "bury" it now
Went for the gathering together and his the other half was there too....a little much earlier than i expected...coz i tot maybe i will get to know in late April or May...is actually just a normal catch up with one another...but not sure why there's a couple of moments that the whole atmosphere is very awkward...not sure if is i'm too sensitive but i can sense that all of us feel it...end up split into groups doing different talking different topics....
In fact i rejected the invitation earlier as i just recovered from my food poisoning last week...I should have stand firm and don't go but then again it is good too...I can really let go le...
When all of us about to leave...maybe i'm just too used to having him accompany me back home like last time...i forgotten that he need to send her off...3 of us actually stuck in the middle of the road looking @ each other...I'm glad that one of friend call me in time to get me out of the situation...thank u so much...
At that point i know everything is over...he will not accompany me back home like last time...he will not send me anymore msg like last time to ensure i'm alright...he will not chat with me like last time over anythings any matters except for some help maybe he will look for me...It's feel like a knife cut through my heart and now is dead...really dead
Like one of friend said i can't give my blessing to u as my heart has not totally let go off everything...my blessing won't be a good one to u...though my heart now is dead but i still don't think i can give u any blessing...i need some times to get over it first...definitely the day when i get over everything i will give my blessing and wishing u the best...
for now, i won't and i can't
Though is gonna be painful...i will hold on to it...i know i can do it and i have to do it...just let me be more busy and occupied i guess i will feel much more better...sometimes i really wish i'm less sensitive and don't be so alert...this will lessen my pain as i won't get to know things that i don't want to know...I really hope, pls
Thanks for stepping in my life and leaving me with memories of happiness, sadness and unforgettable moments. All these really let me grow up and change...I will keep these memories...
i know that i have loved you ... at 11:52 PM
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