Tuesday, September 02, 2008
Is now the mth of September alrdy...that's fast...my studies has come to an end too....now i'm waiting for my result which will be out end of this month or early Oct...Can't believe that i've completed my 3 years degree course...all these while i've been complaining about my studies and having exams every 3 months...now suddenly i feel everything just slow down...perhaps without the rush in my school work makes my time longer....even my weekend now seems to be longer than usual....haha..well it's good though...is been sometime i feel time is waiting for me and not i'm chasing after time...
I have lost count the number of days i'm trying to recover from that issue....still feel heart ache though...whenever i think about it...very foolish of me rite...knowing is impossible and yet i'm still pinning hope on it...i jolly well know there's no ways can be done but seriously i still can't get over it...
Every now and then i still hope there might be a slight chance for me...but end of the day is merely out of concern with the action i received...no special reason for each action...even though i hope there will be....how can i really forget about it...i tried several ways...i even stop myself using internet except during office hours...for the past 2 weeks i been reading on books to occupy my time at night...after which i will go to sleep...still it don't seem to help me in any ways...
Just feel lousy...really very lousy...there's no way i can throw these issues out...i don't feel like talking it to anyone...coz i don't know where to start and how to start...so by blogging it out without any intro or explanation can help me in a way...i can just pour everything out....
Plus lately i'm not very motivated to work...mainly due to the changes in my company...many people whom i've been working with for past 4 yrs are leaving....also still not very used to my new boss...not that he is bad...but just can't get used to him ba even though he has joined us a month or so...my company IT issues is also another problem...it is getting from bad to worst and worst to no words can describe...giving so much trouble instead of helping...
All these further affect me too...just make me feel super lousy....getting sick of everything....seriously hope i can go back to my normal self....i really hope and want to...in terms of mentally and emotionally think i'm totally drain off...
I have lost count the number of days i'm trying to recover from that issue....still feel heart ache though...whenever i think about it...very foolish of me rite...knowing is impossible and yet i'm still pinning hope on it...i jolly well know there's no ways can be done but seriously i still can't get over it...
Every now and then i still hope there might be a slight chance for me...but end of the day is merely out of concern with the action i received...no special reason for each action...even though i hope there will be....how can i really forget about it...i tried several ways...i even stop myself using internet except during office hours...for the past 2 weeks i been reading on books to occupy my time at night...after which i will go to sleep...still it don't seem to help me in any ways...
Just feel lousy...really very lousy...there's no way i can throw these issues out...i don't feel like talking it to anyone...coz i don't know where to start and how to start...so by blogging it out without any intro or explanation can help me in a way...i can just pour everything out....
Plus lately i'm not very motivated to work...mainly due to the changes in my company...many people whom i've been working with for past 4 yrs are leaving....also still not very used to my new boss...not that he is bad...but just can't get used to him ba even though he has joined us a month or so...my company IT issues is also another problem...it is getting from bad to worst and worst to no words can describe...giving so much trouble instead of helping...
All these further affect me too...just make me feel super lousy....getting sick of everything....seriously hope i can go back to my normal self....i really hope and want to...in terms of mentally and emotionally think i'm totally drain off...
i know that i have loved you ... at 11:14 PM
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