Friday, July 18, 2008
Finally~!!! my exam over alrdy....no more upcoming exam....I'm FREE~~~!!! now left my FYP to work on.....after 4th August submission....plus presentation....i'm done with my degree course...so happy~~!!!...Happy that i'm free ...
At the same time, i've free my heart and soul from that issues which i have been bringing up in my blog lately.....this is confirm that i will let go....coz i happen to know all along he do have a person in mind and have make up his mind to confess...he mentioned that is what he want...of coz i feel hurt and is very hurt...but at the same time, it really give me a slap right in my face and wake me up...telling me is over...really over...no point hanging on to it....there won't be any outcome....
I'm glad that i only know after my paper....if not it will further affect me...i'm kind of affected alrdy and been trying to control myself to concentrate on my studies...seriously i feel so painful now....
I went for a haircut today....i cut away my hair again...i cut it short...not boyish style, coz i dun suit though...but shoulder length again and new hair color...tone down alot coz my previous hair color is too bright....Remember the very last time i cut short hair after poly is to forget someone....and it helps...maybe i'm lying to myself but it does help in a way....this time round will it helped the same way...i dunno...i juz wanna give a try, anyway to celebrate my freedom...i need a change...
Seriously i have enough of this sh*t feeling....i don't know how long it gonna hurt me...but definitely it will take long....really long....this i'm sure...silly of me rite...really silly but now is over....just like my exam now over....a new life for me soon...planning for new path, new goal and perhaps make new changes on me....
Oh ya i got promoted, after my 4 years of working in this company....they now promoted me to executive....if is back 2 years ago i will be extremely happy....now that it happen...is not that i'm not happy, yes i'm glad i'm promoted but is not like extremely happy over it....dunno why...could it be my heart no longer in this company...maybe ba...haha...
Ok la enough of my long winded stuff....time to sleep...nitez
At the same time, i've free my heart and soul from that issues which i have been bringing up in my blog lately.....this is confirm that i will let go....coz i happen to know all along he do have a person in mind and have make up his mind to confess...he mentioned that is what he want...of coz i feel hurt and is very hurt...but at the same time, it really give me a slap right in my face and wake me up...telling me is over...really over...no point hanging on to it....there won't be any outcome....
I'm glad that i only know after my paper....if not it will further affect me...i'm kind of affected alrdy and been trying to control myself to concentrate on my studies...seriously i feel so painful now....
I went for a haircut today....i cut away my hair again...i cut it short...not boyish style, coz i dun suit though...but shoulder length again and new hair color...tone down alot coz my previous hair color is too bright....Remember the very last time i cut short hair after poly is to forget someone....and it helps...maybe i'm lying to myself but it does help in a way....this time round will it helped the same way...i dunno...i juz wanna give a try, anyway to celebrate my freedom...i need a change...
Seriously i have enough of this sh*t feeling....i don't know how long it gonna hurt me...but definitely it will take long....really long....this i'm sure...silly of me rite...really silly but now is over....just like my exam now over....a new life for me soon...planning for new path, new goal and perhaps make new changes on me....
Oh ya i got promoted, after my 4 years of working in this company....they now promoted me to executive....if is back 2 years ago i will be extremely happy....now that it happen...is not that i'm not happy, yes i'm glad i'm promoted but is not like extremely happy over it....dunno why...could it be my heart no longer in this company...maybe ba...haha...
Ok la enough of my long winded stuff....time to sleep...nitez
i know that i have loved you ... at 12:50 AM
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