Sunday, July 27, 2008
Today is tiring day for me....rushing for my project and also went back office to finish off my slides for tml meeting....though i'm very buz but still i've not recovered yet...today is the 9th day that i'm trying to overcome it...not been updating about for the past 5 days....that's becoz when i look back at the first few post...i feel sad again...suppose to remind me to be firm and forget about it...but think it doesn't help much...i spoke to one of my colleague - not in detail...she said it's not a bad thing to write it out but have to be sure that's the end and truly put it in the past....think i need to try harder....it still affecting me....even though i did mention i only get to know the truth after my exam which is lucky for me but actually it is not....now i'm pushing myself v hard to work on my FYP....though my supervisor mentioned i'm still ok...but i'm still v worried....
Times seriously passes very fast....tml my new boss come in alrdy....dunno what's his working style like....first impression on him is very soft spoken...looks ok....hope he is ba.....not like some irritating manager in my company now....really damn sickening....great that the irritating fellow is away for the next few days....can have some peace....
Bet this coming week will be a stressful week for me.....need to rush for my project plus month end closing again....think i gotta prepare the things first since i may need to take leave to rush for my project...
Counting down now....7 more days to my project submission....i've to work hard...seriously just a few more steps to the finishing line.....i cannot waste all my efforts...It is very tough for me...i seriously don't expect myself to be in such situation....I alway thought i will be able to handle...but things about emotion is u cannot underestimate it...it can really drive u crazy...feel myself in a mess now....everything not in my control...
when can i go back to my normal self?
Times seriously passes very fast....tml my new boss come in alrdy....dunno what's his working style like....first impression on him is very soft spoken...looks ok....hope he is ba.....not like some irritating manager in my company now....really damn sickening....great that the irritating fellow is away for the next few days....can have some peace....
Bet this coming week will be a stressful week for me.....need to rush for my project plus month end closing again....think i gotta prepare the things first since i may need to take leave to rush for my project...
Counting down now....7 more days to my project submission....i've to work hard...seriously just a few more steps to the finishing line.....i cannot waste all my efforts...It is very tough for me...i seriously don't expect myself to be in such situation....I alway thought i will be able to handle...but things about emotion is u cannot underestimate it...it can really drive u crazy...feel myself in a mess now....everything not in my control...
when can i go back to my normal self?
i know that i have loved you ... at 10:39 PM
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Wednesday, July 23, 2008
又过了一天。。。已经第四天了。。。还在恢复中。。。不知是好或不好。。。今天比较忙。。。因为上个礼拜不在，好多事要跟进。。。可是我一直分心。。。做了好几次才对。。。真糟糕。。。希望没事。。。
还是不能集中精神。。。我想得让我更忙一点吧。。。希望明天会更好。。。。
还是不能集中精神。。。我想得让我更忙一点吧。。。希望明天会更好。。。。
i know that i have loved you ... at 12:30 AM
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Monday, July 21, 2008
Day 3, 21st July...still slowly recovering from the pain.....also another raining day
For past 3 days it has been raining non-stop....pretty cold man...Today i return back to work after my exam break....not used to it coz been sleeping very late for the past one week plus....this morning still have a quarterly meeting...i'm worried that i may be late for it so din really sleep well last nite or rather i din sleep at all....i can't differentiate if is truly due to worry of being late or due to him...mixture of both ba....
Anyway i will try to re-adjust my body alarm again....quite hard though but no choice i guess....
For past 3 days it has been raining non-stop....pretty cold man...Today i return back to work after my exam break....not used to it coz been sleeping very late for the past one week plus....this morning still have a quarterly meeting...i'm worried that i may be late for it so din really sleep well last nite or rather i din sleep at all....i can't differentiate if is truly due to worry of being late or due to him...mixture of both ba....
Anyway i will try to re-adjust my body alarm again....quite hard though but no choice i guess....
i know that i have loved you ... at 11:23 PM
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Sunday, July 20, 2008
今天7月20号，慢慢恢复的第二天，也是雨天。。。今天一整天在赶明早开会需要的资料。。。有一段时间没做了，有点不习惯。。。花了许多时间整理。。。希望做得对。。。
也因为忙了整天。。。时间好快就过了。。。没什么机会去想他。。。。这样也不错。。。只是当时间慢下来后，我不知不觉会想起，就像现在。。。不知道他完成他的希望了吗？。。。希望已经完成了。。。给你我的祝福。。。
也因为忙了整天。。。时间好快就过了。。。没什么机会去想他。。。。这样也不错。。。只是当时间慢下来后，我不知不觉会想起，就像现在。。。不知道他完成他的希望了吗？。。。希望已经完成了。。。给你我的祝福。。。
i know that i have loved you ... at 11:39 PM
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Saturday, July 19, 2008
Today 19th July, raining day....seems like the sky is crying for me....or rather helping me to wash away all the sorrows....Today is the first day i didn't read up anything about him....i managed to stop myself from looking at it...a good start for me i guess...tml will be better
then again i do want to wish him good luck and all the best...hope he success this time round...think he will since he has make up his mind...i have faith in him...All the best!
then again i do want to wish him good luck and all the best...hope he success this time round...think he will since he has make up his mind...i have faith in him...All the best!
i know that i have loved you ... at 11:57 PM
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Friday, July 18, 2008
喜欢一个人好累 by 泳儿
昨天你送我一个笑脸
今天你经过了我身边
每天你这样一举一动
都影响我的悲伤喜悦
昨天你多看了我一眼
今天我有些心不在焉
哪天我才会有勇气
勇敢面对
＊暗恋喜欢一个人好累
想像你轻轻搂我的肩
走在人挤人的街
抓紧你的手甜蜜无限
暗恋喜欢一个人好累
流泪在数不尽的黑夜
想念变成了习惯
想你一遍遍你却好远＊
如果你不当我是朋友
而是其他重要的角色
是否我就可以占有
你每个笑容
昨天你送我一个笑脸
今天你经过了我身边
每天你这样一举一动
都影响我的悲伤喜悦
昨天你多看了我一眼
今天我有些心不在焉
哪天我才会有勇气
勇敢面对
＊暗恋喜欢一个人好累
想像你轻轻搂我的肩
走在人挤人的街
抓紧你的手甜蜜无限
暗恋喜欢一个人好累
流泪在数不尽的黑夜
想念变成了习惯
想你一遍遍你却好远＊
如果你不当我是朋友
而是其他重要的角色
是否我就可以占有
你每个笑容
i know that i have loved you ... at 10:39 PM
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Finally~!!! my exam over alrdy....no more upcoming exam....I'm FREE~~~!!! now left my FYP to work on.....after 4th August submission....plus presentation....i'm done with my degree course...so happy~~!!!...Happy that i'm free ...
At the same time, i've free my heart and soul from that issues which i have been bringing up in my blog lately.....this is confirm that i will let go....coz i happen to know all along he do have a person in mind and have make up his mind to confess...he mentioned that is what he want...of coz i feel hurt and is very hurt...but at the same time, it really give me a slap right in my face and wake me up...telling me is over...really over...no point hanging on to it....there won't be any outcome....
I'm glad that i only know after my paper....if not it will further affect me...i'm kind of affected alrdy and been trying to control myself to concentrate on my studies...seriously i feel so painful now....
I went for a haircut today....i cut away my hair again...i cut it short...not boyish style, coz i dun suit though...but shoulder length again and new hair color...tone down alot coz my previous hair color is too bright....Remember the very last time i cut short hair after poly is to forget someone....and it helps...maybe i'm lying to myself but it does help in a way....this time round will it helped the same way...i dunno...i juz wanna give a try, anyway to celebrate my freedom...i need a change...
Seriously i have enough of this sh*t feeling....i don't know how long it gonna hurt me...but definitely it will take long....really long....this i'm sure...silly of me rite...really silly but now is over....just like my exam now over....a new life for me soon...planning for new path, new goal and perhaps make new changes on me....
Oh ya i got promoted, after my 4 years of working in this company....they now promoted me to executive....if is back 2 years ago i will be extremely happy....now that it happen...is not that i'm not happy, yes i'm glad i'm promoted but is not like extremely happy over it....dunno why...could it be my heart no longer in this company...maybe ba...haha...
Ok la enough of my long winded stuff....time to sleep...nitez
At the same time, i've free my heart and soul from that issues which i have been bringing up in my blog lately.....this is confirm that i will let go....coz i happen to know all along he do have a person in mind and have make up his mind to confess...he mentioned that is what he want...of coz i feel hurt and is very hurt...but at the same time, it really give me a slap right in my face and wake me up...telling me is over...really over...no point hanging on to it....there won't be any outcome....
I'm glad that i only know after my paper....if not it will further affect me...i'm kind of affected alrdy and been trying to control myself to concentrate on my studies...seriously i feel so painful now....
I went for a haircut today....i cut away my hair again...i cut it short...not boyish style, coz i dun suit though...but shoulder length again and new hair color...tone down alot coz my previous hair color is too bright....Remember the very last time i cut short hair after poly is to forget someone....and it helps...maybe i'm lying to myself but it does help in a way....this time round will it helped the same way...i dunno...i juz wanna give a try, anyway to celebrate my freedom...i need a change...
Seriously i have enough of this sh*t feeling....i don't know how long it gonna hurt me...but definitely it will take long....really long....this i'm sure...silly of me rite...really silly but now is over....just like my exam now over....a new life for me soon...planning for new path, new goal and perhaps make new changes on me....
Oh ya i got promoted, after my 4 years of working in this company....they now promoted me to executive....if is back 2 years ago i will be extremely happy....now that it happen...is not that i'm not happy, yes i'm glad i'm promoted but is not like extremely happy over it....dunno why...could it be my heart no longer in this company...maybe ba...haha...
Ok la enough of my long winded stuff....time to sleep...nitez
i know that i have loved you ... at 12:50 AM
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Monday, July 07, 2008
已经7月7号了。。。好快再过几天我要考试了。。。。这次是最后两张试卷。。。考完我就自由了~~~！！！终于等到这天了。。。好不容易。。。虽然是考完了，可是还有一个FYP在8月4号要交。。。多几个礼拜。。。我要加油~~！！。。。
话虽然这么说。。。总觉得有好多事情要做。。。可是时间不够用。。。加上一些情绪的问题。。。我想读我的部落各的人都觉得厌烦吧。。。因为我一直在转圈圈。。。一直为那件事烦。。。一直说要放手，可是一直做不到。。。我自己也觉得我好烦。。。为什么不直接说清楚，就好像Caro说的。。。问个明白就不用烦恼了。。。我也想。。。可是我做不到。。。我不想破坏现在的感觉。。。至少大家有说有笑的，好过一言不语。。。真的好烦。。。为什么我总是在不对的时候，为这种事烦恼。。。有时真想不理他就算了。。。可是常常做不到。。。每一次都让自己好累又好伤心。。。
我不敢再说什么要放弃或不再理他的。。。我知道我还是会一直想着这件事。。。我只能说随缘吧。。。真的。。。不想了我不想流泪了，这只会让我更累而已。。。好啦我啰嗦完了。。。大家晚安咯~！！
话虽然这么说。。。总觉得有好多事情要做。。。可是时间不够用。。。加上一些情绪的问题。。。我想读我的部落各的人都觉得厌烦吧。。。因为我一直在转圈圈。。。一直为那件事烦。。。一直说要放手，可是一直做不到。。。我自己也觉得我好烦。。。为什么不直接说清楚，就好像Caro说的。。。问个明白就不用烦恼了。。。我也想。。。可是我做不到。。。我不想破坏现在的感觉。。。至少大家有说有笑的，好过一言不语。。。真的好烦。。。为什么我总是在不对的时候，为这种事烦恼。。。有时真想不理他就算了。。。可是常常做不到。。。每一次都让自己好累又好伤心。。。
我不敢再说什么要放弃或不再理他的。。。我知道我还是会一直想着这件事。。。我只能说随缘吧。。。真的。。。不想了我不想流泪了，这只会让我更累而已。。。好啦我啰嗦完了。。。大家晚安咯~！！
i know that i have loved you ... at 11:38 PM
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