Tuesday, June 10, 2008
Been very busy lately...well izzit busy or just because i'm been affected by some issue....i can't differentiate.....just find that i'm very tired almost everyday.....could be partly due to my boss departure and some re-shuffling of work...which make me feel tense up and busy ba....
Finally i fall sick le....felt feverish since y'day morning in office....but after taking panodol i feel better...later in the evening it started again....so i went to see my doc @ 607...he said i very stubborn....shld have come back earlier to see him...not wait till after work....oh well those who know me ...shld understand how i work la.....anyway had a jab again haiz yes i said again coz last week i just went to see him as my gastric is not feeling too good....same thing he gave me a jab...within a short interval i got 2 jab from him...think he earning big bucks from me man....hahaha kidding only...
So end up today i took a MC and rest @ home.....it been sometime i take MC le....seriously i had a good sleep.....i slept almost 12hours straight.....hahaha...monster rite...i know...but feel good man!! yeah!....good for me too coz i can finally sleep without any dreaming...it very tiring to have dreams while sleeping...my mind is not resting at all....
For the past few weeks i've not been sleeping well....keep having dreams and many things in my mind...getting very tired about some of the issue....i wanna let go but not bear to....i wanted to hold on to it but i'm scared i can't take the end result....it's complicating rite...ya it is getting more and more complicated....
I can't remember when is the last time my heart feel ache.....lately i keep having this feeling....it is awful really terrible and i hate this feeling...thanks god that now i have no more class i only need to concentrate on my FYP and work....hopefully i can make use these two things to bury this feeling....then get more busy to forget all the stuff...
Still debating shld i let go....maybe i shld ....i know i been saying this but no action on it....i'm trying really i'm trying....i also don't want history to repeat itself....it is a terrible feeling also....but seems like the other party is making used of me to be the postman....i don't want to be any postman or spokeperson...i am who i am....
How i wish someone can just knock me out...let me forget just this portion of incident that has happened...think it will help me....then i can live on much happier....frankly i am not happy lately...i also don't know what to do to make me happy....feel very aimless very bored very tired....think is my medicine taking effect alrdy....talking rubbish again....haha...don't bother me...that's all folks!! Good nite alll~~!!
Finally i fall sick le....felt feverish since y'day morning in office....but after taking panodol i feel better...later in the evening it started again....so i went to see my doc @ 607...he said i very stubborn....shld have come back earlier to see him...not wait till after work....oh well those who know me ...shld understand how i work la.....anyway had a jab again haiz yes i said again coz last week i just went to see him as my gastric is not feeling too good....same thing he gave me a jab...within a short interval i got 2 jab from him...think he earning big bucks from me man....hahaha kidding only...
So end up today i took a MC and rest @ home.....it been sometime i take MC le....seriously i had a good sleep.....i slept almost 12hours straight.....hahaha...monster rite...i know...but feel good man!! yeah!....good for me too coz i can finally sleep without any dreaming...it very tiring to have dreams while sleeping...my mind is not resting at all....
For the past few weeks i've not been sleeping well....keep having dreams and many things in my mind...getting very tired about some of the issue....i wanna let go but not bear to....i wanted to hold on to it but i'm scared i can't take the end result....it's complicating rite...ya it is getting more and more complicated....
I can't remember when is the last time my heart feel ache.....lately i keep having this feeling....it is awful really terrible and i hate this feeling...thanks god that now i have no more class i only need to concentrate on my FYP and work....hopefully i can make use these two things to bury this feeling....then get more busy to forget all the stuff...
Still debating shld i let go....maybe i shld ....i know i been saying this but no action on it....i'm trying really i'm trying....i also don't want history to repeat itself....it is a terrible feeling also....but seems like the other party is making used of me to be the postman....i don't want to be any postman or spokeperson...i am who i am....
How i wish someone can just knock me out...let me forget just this portion of incident that has happened...think it will help me....then i can live on much happier....frankly i am not happy lately...i also don't know what to do to make me happy....feel very aimless very bored very tired....think is my medicine taking effect alrdy....talking rubbish again....haha...don't bother me...that's all folks!! Good nite alll~~!!
i know that i have loved you ... at 9:46 PM
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