Sunday, June 29, 2008
Today is my big day....haha dun get me wrong wor...is my birthday today....hmm all along i hardly celebrated my birthday...mainly go for a dinner with couples of my friends or go for singing session....lately these years i'm more busy hence not much of celebration...even some of my frenz's birthday celebration i din turn up too...been tied up with many stuff....
In fact this year i went for a couple of makan session with my frenzs and colleagues....seriously i been EATING ALOT....far TOO MUCH....feel like puking alrdy...since thurs onwards i been eating non-stop....thurs nite went for crabbie dinner with my ex-boss and 3 other colleague, V, S, K @ Tiong Baru then drink @ Happy Vally Hong Kong Cafe...today actual day i only went for a quick dinner with my frenz as i'm in office earlier on doing my stuff....then y'day after my lesson dinner with Nic...we having hard time deciding where to makan.....coz she din want to decide as it's meant to be a birthday dinner with me...she asked me to decide.....but i don't know where to eat it...at that time i miss her "ma fan-ness" coz she will decide a place and that's it....wahahaha
The nite before...went dinner with Jo n Jen @ boat Quay for pasta...the food not bad...quite nice....after that we went Merchant Court lounge for a drink and chitchat till late nite....been a long time we stay out....had a long chat and also updates about everyone....hmm seems like everyone moving towards their goal and working hard on it...i don't seem to achieve much stuff though.....
Earlier on some issues bothering me....which makes me feel v uneasy and unhappy....think is becoz i think too much and trying to read too much.....for the past 2 weeks i fully concentrate on my work n FYP.....that feeling lessen....not so much like last time....partly is becoz i stop myself from thinking abt it....or rather i don't allow myself to think abt it....think it helps....i believe soon i can get over it and everything will resume back as per normal....this week i been very good ...i can stop myself from thinking abt it even though i do hope that since my birthday is coming i may be able to get some surprise.....but i know is impossible and it won't happen at all....very naive rite...ya i also know that....true enuff nothing happen all remains the same except a surprise from my buddies....they send me basket of flower with a bear...it so cute!! ...Brought it back home today...
I didnt make any wishes this year...coz i don't know what to wish for....my heart is confuse and so is my soul......i know what i want to wish for will not come true .....lately many incident shows to me that if i wish for it ...it won't come true...i noted the hint ....that's why i willing to be naive again...just let it become a hope for me ba....maybe as time goes i will let go this hope and things juz resolve .....hopefully and then i can have my beauty sleep back like last time..
My birthday over now i'm 26...one year old hope i'm one year wiser...be able to achieve more things that i want.....
In fact this year i went for a couple of makan session with my frenzs and colleagues....seriously i been EATING ALOT....far TOO MUCH....feel like puking alrdy...since thurs onwards i been eating non-stop....thurs nite went for crabbie dinner with my ex-boss and 3 other colleague, V, S, K @ Tiong Baru then drink @ Happy Vally Hong Kong Cafe...today actual day i only went for a quick dinner with my frenz as i'm in office earlier on doing my stuff....then y'day after my lesson dinner with Nic...we having hard time deciding where to makan.....coz she din want to decide as it's meant to be a birthday dinner with me...she asked me to decide.....but i don't know where to eat it...at that time i miss her "ma fan-ness" coz she will decide a place and that's it....wahahaha
The nite before...went dinner with Jo n Jen @ boat Quay for pasta...the food not bad...quite nice....after that we went Merchant Court lounge for a drink and chitchat till late nite....been a long time we stay out....had a long chat and also updates about everyone....hmm seems like everyone moving towards their goal and working hard on it...i don't seem to achieve much stuff though.....
Earlier on some issues bothering me....which makes me feel v uneasy and unhappy....think is becoz i think too much and trying to read too much.....for the past 2 weeks i fully concentrate on my work n FYP.....that feeling lessen....not so much like last time....partly is becoz i stop myself from thinking abt it....or rather i don't allow myself to think abt it....think it helps....i believe soon i can get over it and everything will resume back as per normal....this week i been very good ...i can stop myself from thinking abt it even though i do hope that since my birthday is coming i may be able to get some surprise.....but i know is impossible and it won't happen at all....very naive rite...ya i also know that....true enuff nothing happen all remains the same except a surprise from my buddies....they send me basket of flower with a bear...it so cute!! ...Brought it back home today...
I didnt make any wishes this year...coz i don't know what to wish for....my heart is confuse and so is my soul......i know what i want to wish for will not come true .....lately many incident shows to me that if i wish for it ...it won't come true...i noted the hint ....that's why i willing to be naive again...just let it become a hope for me ba....maybe as time goes i will let go this hope and things juz resolve .....hopefully and then i can have my beauty sleep back like last time..
My birthday over now i'm 26...one year old hope i'm one year wiser...be able to achieve more things that i want.....
i know that i have loved you ... at 11:18 PM
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fate crumbled all around 0 identities
Monday, June 23, 2008
时 间过得好快。。。已经六月中了。。。不知不觉我的上司已经走了大半个月。。。这期间种觉得好像少了些什么。。。可能习惯了我的上司工作方式。。。我也开始 有了更多责任。。。其实一路来都是我在做。。只是现在我不是单单负责做而已。。。还要负责报告给有关部门。。。虽然这给了我更多空间学习。。不过对于应付 人事方面。。。我实在不行。。。我还学不会带面具做人。。。每一次面对那些讨厌的人，我都无法影盖我的表情。。。真不懂那些人是怎么做到的。。
也因为越来越忙。。。忽然觉得一天的时间好快就完。。。常常在不知不觉中过完一 天。。。也因如此那件事对我的影响也不再那么大了。。。可能是当时一刹那的感觉。。。不然就是这段日子忙过头了。。。让我无法去烦那件事。。。可是有时也 会想起。。。只是现在心里不会像以前那么不舒服。。。我已经尽量不去想它。。。既然现在我能够不那么去想它了。。。希望我可以完全放下。。。我只希望能保 持现状。。。其余的我不敢去多想了。。。虽然不是最理想的状况，不过我想不会有奇迹吧。。。希望大家能各自找到各自的理想对象吧。。。
在过不久我就要毕业了。。。终于读完了。。。好高兴啊。。。哈哈。。。能有更多时间做我想做的事了。。。不知道到时我会不会不习惯有那么多的空时间。。。 多多少少会吧。。。哈哈。。。到时我会在我的部落各投诉太多时间。。。我也很期待那种空闲的时刻。。。好久没感觉了。。。
好了不哈啦了。。。该去休息。。晚安咯大家。。。
也因为越来越忙。。。忽然觉得一天的时间好快就完。。。常常在不知不觉中过完一 天。。。也因如此那件事对我的影响也不再那么大了。。。可能是当时一刹那的感觉。。。不然就是这段日子忙过头了。。。让我无法去烦那件事。。。可是有时也 会想起。。。只是现在心里不会像以前那么不舒服。。。我已经尽量不去想它。。。既然现在我能够不那么去想它了。。。希望我可以完全放下。。。我只希望能保 持现状。。。其余的我不敢去多想了。。。虽然不是最理想的状况，不过我想不会有奇迹吧。。。希望大家能各自找到各自的理想对象吧。。。
在过不久我就要毕业了。。。终于读完了。。。好高兴啊。。。哈哈。。。能有更多时间做我想做的事了。。。不知道到时我会不会不习惯有那么多的空时间。。。 多多少少会吧。。。哈哈。。。到时我会在我的部落各投诉太多时间。。。我也很期待那种空闲的时刻。。。好久没感觉了。。。
好了不哈啦了。。。该去休息。。晚安咯大家。。。
i know that i have loved you ... at 12:37 AM
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fate crumbled all around 0 identities
Tuesday, June 10, 2008
Been very busy lately...well izzit busy or just because i'm been affected by some issue....i can't differentiate.....just find that i'm very tired almost everyday.....could be partly due to my boss departure and some re-shuffling of work...which make me feel tense up and busy ba....
Finally i fall sick le....felt feverish since y'day morning in office....but after taking panodol i feel better...later in the evening it started again....so i went to see my doc @ 607...he said i very stubborn....shld have come back earlier to see him...not wait till after work....oh well those who know me ...shld understand how i work la.....anyway had a jab again haiz yes i said again coz last week i just went to see him as my gastric is not feeling too good....same thing he gave me a jab...within a short interval i got 2 jab from him...think he earning big bucks from me man....hahaha kidding only...
So end up today i took a MC and rest @ home.....it been sometime i take MC le....seriously i had a good sleep.....i slept almost 12hours straight.....hahaha...monster rite...i know...but feel good man!! yeah!....good for me too coz i can finally sleep without any dreaming...it very tiring to have dreams while sleeping...my mind is not resting at all....
For the past few weeks i've not been sleeping well....keep having dreams and many things in my mind...getting very tired about some of the issue....i wanna let go but not bear to....i wanted to hold on to it but i'm scared i can't take the end result....it's complicating rite...ya it is getting more and more complicated....
I can't remember when is the last time my heart feel ache.....lately i keep having this feeling....it is awful really terrible and i hate this feeling...thanks god that now i have no more class i only need to concentrate on my FYP and work....hopefully i can make use these two things to bury this feeling....then get more busy to forget all the stuff...
Still debating shld i let go....maybe i shld ....i know i been saying this but no action on it....i'm trying really i'm trying....i also don't want history to repeat itself....it is a terrible feeling also....but seems like the other party is making used of me to be the postman....i don't want to be any postman or spokeperson...i am who i am....
How i wish someone can just knock me out...let me forget just this portion of incident that has happened...think it will help me....then i can live on much happier....frankly i am not happy lately...i also don't know what to do to make me happy....feel very aimless very bored very tired....think is my medicine taking effect alrdy....talking rubbish again....haha...don't bother me...that's all folks!! Good nite alll~~!!
Finally i fall sick le....felt feverish since y'day morning in office....but after taking panodol i feel better...later in the evening it started again....so i went to see my doc @ 607...he said i very stubborn....shld have come back earlier to see him...not wait till after work....oh well those who know me ...shld understand how i work la.....anyway had a jab again haiz yes i said again coz last week i just went to see him as my gastric is not feeling too good....same thing he gave me a jab...within a short interval i got 2 jab from him...think he earning big bucks from me man....hahaha kidding only...
So end up today i took a MC and rest @ home.....it been sometime i take MC le....seriously i had a good sleep.....i slept almost 12hours straight.....hahaha...monster rite...i know...but feel good man!! yeah!....good for me too coz i can finally sleep without any dreaming...it very tiring to have dreams while sleeping...my mind is not resting at all....
For the past few weeks i've not been sleeping well....keep having dreams and many things in my mind...getting very tired about some of the issue....i wanna let go but not bear to....i wanted to hold on to it but i'm scared i can't take the end result....it's complicating rite...ya it is getting more and more complicated....
I can't remember when is the last time my heart feel ache.....lately i keep having this feeling....it is awful really terrible and i hate this feeling...thanks god that now i have no more class i only need to concentrate on my FYP and work....hopefully i can make use these two things to bury this feeling....then get more busy to forget all the stuff...
Still debating shld i let go....maybe i shld ....i know i been saying this but no action on it....i'm trying really i'm trying....i also don't want history to repeat itself....it is a terrible feeling also....but seems like the other party is making used of me to be the postman....i don't want to be any postman or spokeperson...i am who i am....
How i wish someone can just knock me out...let me forget just this portion of incident that has happened...think it will help me....then i can live on much happier....frankly i am not happy lately...i also don't know what to do to make me happy....feel very aimless very bored very tired....think is my medicine taking effect alrdy....talking rubbish again....haha...don't bother me...that's all folks!! Good nite alll~~!!
i know that i have loved you ... at 9:46 PM
fate crumbled all around 0 identities
fate crumbled all around 0 identities
Monday, June 02, 2008
他不爱我 by 莫文蔚
他不爱我
牵手的时候太冷清
拥抱的时候不够靠近
他不爱我
说话的时候不够认真
沈默的时候又太用心
我知道他不爱我
他的眼神说出他的心
我看透了他的心
还有别人逗留的背影
他的回忆清除得不够乾净
我看到了他的心
演的全是他和她的电影
他不爱我
尽管如此
他还是赢走了我的心
他不爱我
牵手的时候太冷清
拥抱的时候不够靠近
他不爱我
说话的时候不够认真
沈默的时候又太用心
我知道他不爱我
他的眼神说出他的心
我看透了他的心
还有别人逗留的背影
他的回忆清除得不够乾净
我看到了他的心
演的全是他和她的电影
他不爱我
尽管如此
他还是赢走了我的心
i know that i have loved you ... at 12:32 AM
fate crumbled all around 0 identities
fate crumbled all around 0 identities