Sunday, November 18, 2007
Guess what...i'm still awake now...trying to do my project...but just couldnt concentrate to do...don't know why...ever since last term onwards my concentration for my studies is getting low...i just don't seem to feel like studying even though there's alot for me to catch up...what's going on with me....seriously i myself also don't know...
Could be alot of things i couldn't let go ba....think too much i guess...but i can't stop myself from thinking....had a chat with Jolyn last week...pop by to visit ther and baby Yendi...she's so adorable....i'm very shock when she told me she nearly suffer from depression....due to several issues....glad to hear that she's fine now....during the chat with her...somehow something came across my mind that am i suffering from depression in a way or another?...haha i know it sound ridiculous...but i did suspect was i ever in a state of depression or near to that...i can't verify if is true....
There's a period of time where i'm so affected by my work + study + personal issue....that these period time is really hell time to me man....somehow or what i manage to get through...surprisingly rite?...i'm amazing by my will to overcome all these....of coz not that i didnt let out all these frustration and stress....i did let go but i guess i didnt do it completely...it still stays in my heart and now is buried somewhere deep inside....at times i'll accidentally open them up and start to think back....then lots of "why didnt i do these at that" and "why is it so unfair" and etc...all sort of question will floating around my mind....this is also the reason why i tends to go into deep thoughts....
I roughly told Jolyn abt it....she's amazed by the way i handle it....she commented i'm forcing myself too much...Yes and no i will say....certain things cannot be voiced out when it been sealed for long period of time....is like a stretching a rubber band...the more u stretch it...it gets tighter...and if u over do it...it will break up....i'm just trying to maintain and make sure this rubber band won't breaks....
Anyway i found that she change alot...perhaps is due to the fact that she's mother of one now...hence behaviour and others has changed to more mature....same goes to Derrick...father of one...can tell that he is very happy...and dotes his little princess alot.....Also on the same week i attended Feeza's wedding...first time i attend a Malay wedding....it really something v different from the impression i have....Of coz Feeza that day was so beautiful....in fact she is beautiful...hahah what am i talking abt...
Guess this year is a good year ba...lots of wedding going on and alot of newborns babies...have this happiness feeling....I hope next year will be a much better year...Oh has anyone guess those 欠扁问答题...haha..i get Neko to guess...she nearly faint i think..ok here's the answer
为什麽有人对大海说笑话后被淹死?
答:海啸(笑)
什麽茶不能喝?
答:警察
什麽动物能帮你把瓶子打开?
答:孔雀开屏(瓶)
haha ....hope those who read these enjoy...really gotta go...better go and rest tml i shld forced myself to study
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